Josua's life story....Hmmm...
Although it wasn't a long life Joshua lived every moment.
Joshua was born in Massachusetts and we lived there until he was
9 years old and then we moved to Florida. He has two brothers, Mat and Andrew, who he loved very much;
the three of them were very close.
In high school he was in a Jazz band; he could play any brass there was. He was involved in Christian Myme (I think I spelled it right). He was a talented artist who could draw anything (didn't get any of that from me LOL). He was a vegetarian; his favorite color was purple. He walked about two feet off the ground at all times. Never sad, always smiling and happy. He was the man of the house for most of our time together and always made sure I knew things would be okay. The reason I chose this song is because one night, before he passed, he came home with some friends. I was asleep and he came into my room and said, "Mommy, I'm home, get up and come in the living room with us," so I did (any opportunity to spend time was all right with me at any hour). Well, Techno was the music of choice for them at that time, and as I sat on the couch watching them dance,
"IN A DREAM" was playing. I looked at Joshua, and all I could think was, "Wow, look at my son, I didn't know how great he could dance." I just sat in amazement and watched while that song played.
It is now one of my wonderful memories of my son...
That was the last time he ever woke me up until after he passed.
It was only a short month later.
Mat and Andrew...
When tomorrow starts without me,
and I'm not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find yours eyes,
all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry,
the way you did today,
while thinking of the many things
we didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
as much as I love you,
and each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too;
But when tomorrow starts without me,
please try to understand,
that an Angel came and called my name,
and took me by the hand,
and said my place was ready,
in heaven far above,
and that I'd have to leave behind
all those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away,
a tear fell from my eye,
for all life, I'd always thought,
I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for,
so much yet to do,
it seemed almost impossible
that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays,
the good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared
and all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday,
just even for a while,
I'd say good-bye and kiss you
and maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized
that this could never be,
for emptiness and memories,
would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you and when I did,
my heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heavens gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
from His great golden throne,
He said, "This is eternity, and all I've promised you."
Today for life on earth is past,
but here it starts anew.
I promise not tomorrow,
but today will always last,
and since each day's the same day,
there's no longing for the past.
But you have been so faithful
so trusting and so true.
Though there were times
you did some things,
you know you shouldn't do.
But you have been forgiven
and now at last you're free.
So won't you take my hand
and share my life with me?
So when tomorrow starts without me,
don't think we're far apart,
for every time you think of me,
I'm right here, in your heart.